Between 1992 and 2004 I wrote some unfinished texts, a part of them, now out-of-print, having been published by publishers in Nice, and the others, from 2001, unpublished before 2014. These texts precede my thriller Mars Girl, which broke my works on the Web. By reworking them in a final form, I wanted to tell the story of an intellectual evolution as if it were about a fiction, defining a narrative essay, between an essay and a novel. Esthetic, psychoanalytical and spiritual inspired, the approach moves from theory to imagination, with sometimes precise bibliographic references, especially in art criticism. Words are the main characters, as traces of someone in the world.